# On the Loss of Love <span style="font-size: 13px;"> <span style="color: black;">Planted:</span> <span style="color: gray;"> 23 September 2025</span> </span> [I already delved into this matter on my personal blog](https://www.stephanlevin.com/blog/on-the-loss-of-love), as this year's occurrences felt like they had an impact that went far beyond my personal life. Yet I felt like writing down more thoughts on the matter, as, after all, it has devoured this year so far, and one of the things that has helped most with handling life since then has been writing. When I say loss of love, I specifically mean the loss of the love of my life: a person who blessed my existence like nothing else ever has. It's a bittersweet tragedy. This entire year proved, mainly to myself, that my love is unbreakable. Even after a brutal separation that nearly ended me, I remain loving and offer my presence for solace or comfort, even without any reciprocation. It's proof of a statement that wasn't met with any belief: that my love would still be present in ten or twenty years, no matter what. Yet I never imagined living out this statement by myself. I have found peace, though. Peace in the fact that I'm going to die alone. I met "my person," the only one I ever wanted to share the rest of my life with. And I'm going to continue living with this love forever, yet contrary to my beliefs and expectations, all alone. It's a cliché that I thought I had defied, the cliché that everyone leaves in the end, and the only person remaining is yourself. But it seems I have to accept that reality. Yet pain and grief don't have to be all bad. They can also be a source of motivation, inspiration, and change, whether willingly or unwillingly. In my case, it subconsciously led to my "[[The Winter Arc|Winter Arc]]", which is only the beginning of me taking my physical and mental health seriously, while it also helped me discover my "art language" and personal style. Nonetheless, I continue to honor love as a concept. I believe that if truly found and lived, it can be the most beautiful of experiences imaginable, to me, at least. After all, I should know. I had the pleasure of living it for over six years. #life #thoughts --- <div class="button-row"> <button id="like-button"> <span class="material-symbols-outlined" id="like-icon">favorite</span> <span id="like-count">0</span> </button> <a href="Write Something" class="bookmark-link internal-link"> <button id="comment"> <span class="material-symbols-outlined" id="comment-icon">chat_bubble</span> </button> </a> </div>